BP and BS are stable.
I’ve got a meeting tomorrow afternoon with the bosses.
They’re acting strange. They have two key people coming over at 10:00am, me at 1:00pm and two more key people at 5:00pm. What the fuck are they up to???
The only problem I have is that at 65, with a random skill set, I’m going to have a hard time finding another job, and I can’t collect social security until November. Well, I can collect, but it will be about $300 a month less than if I can just hang on a little longer.
Speaking of social security, how the fuck does anyone live on $1100 dollars a month? My house is paid off and I can’t figure out how to get by, unless I become a hermit and never go out, and never spend a dime more than I absolutely have to.
I’m too damn old to start running scared, but I am. When I was twenty something I didn’t worry about anything, now I can feel the end creeping up and I’m totally unprepared.
Just how in the hell did I manage to get this old? And how am I supposed to deal with it? I’ve got no one to take care of me when I can’t take care of myself, and I can’t afford to pay someone.
I’m not ready to give up, but I can feel that time closing in.
It sucks to realize that you’re mortal and nobody lives forever. I just hope I die before Alzheimers or something worse gets me.